Inspiration is AWOL

It’s official, I have writer’s block. Inspiration is completely evading me and it’s driving me mad.

I guess it’s not just writer’s block that is attacking, it’s a whole lack of inspiration in general. Take today for instance; I totally intended to get out and about and do something. Even if it was just to take a walk but I couldn’t decide what to do. Instead, I ended up watching a The Big Bang Theory marathon and wasting a lot of time on the internet. It’s incredible how much time you can waste doing absolutely nothing!

Now I feel like I’ve wasted the entire day and I’m beating myself up about it. I hope this feeling is the kick start I’m going to need tomorrow to get me out and about and not just hiding from the cold – which is what I convinced myself I was doing today. Yesterday I was full of vague plans of things that I wanted to get done today and yet here I am at 7.30pm still in my pajamas with unbrushed hair.

I am the queen of procrastination. I think it’s one of the reasons that I’m so rubbish at making decisions. Or maybe I procrastinate so much because I hate making decisions. If I put off deciding on something I’ll usually be forced into a situation or somebody else will make the decision instead.

Going by the quote above I should be spending the rest of my life vegetating on the sofa in front of mindless TV. I’m pretty sure that’s not a calling or profession and that I need to get my bum into gear and get going. When I’m not lounging around I find myself sitting at the computer refreshing my inbox and social media channels just to find something to distract me. Why do we spend so much time doing absolutely nothing? I can find myself tuning out and staring blankly at the screen, then once I snap myself out of it I can realise that hours have passed. How is that even possible?

The less you do, the less you feel like doing and I think that’s my main problem at the moment. I’m definitely a spring/summer person. When it’s cold and dark all I want to do is hibernate. Eating and sleeping and little much else. Sounds like a pretty good plan, no? The thing is, we’re not built for hibernation, we’re social beings that thrive on interaction. So why is that interaction so difficult sometimes?

A couple of my goals for the year were to take more photographs and take better care of myself, neither of which I can do laying on the sofa. I’m not saying that a good duvet day isn’t good every now and then but that’s exactly what it should be – every now and then. A chance to recharge your batteries once in a while. So, in order to appreciate a recharge I need to get out there and drain them.

I know I shouldn’t beat myself up about it and it is just human nature but I wish I could get myself a little more focused instead of just floating the way I do sometimes.

So, what do you do to prevent yourself procrastinating? What inspires you to get up and go? What advice do you have for me to defeat my writer’s and general life block?

Kisses

Lojo

P.S. Sorry for the deep, personal post but I figured if I could get it down it might be enough to get me to face up to myself and knuckle down!